Rough notes from 5:00 a.m. Laughing Labyrinth walk.
Really pulled into “shenpa” by listening to students’ excuses, tracking them down, nudging them along, treating them like adults and then being disappointed by their lack of follow through. Getting too wrapped up with AARP details, and managing calm ahead of the Equinox Workshop.
I didn’t walk the labyrinth last night on World Peace Meditation as I meant to and was restless all night. 4:00 a.m. came early and after trying to center knew I was to walk.
Complain…complain…complain…. I’m not so different from the GED students I work with.
“Why do the neighbors insist on leaving front lights on that blind me in the labyrinth?” “Gosh (well another word really), those car lights are bright. Why is there a curve right there so the lights blind me?” “These darn Maximilian sunflowers. I staked them up the other day and they are lolling all over the path, again. D—.” “These low hanging limbs of the magnolia tree really are in the way. I should cut them off so I don’t have to duck.”
Then, I paused, looked at the setting just full moon – that was shining too bright! – and then looked up at the rich and deep indigo sky with the amazing pinpricks of light that are stars, galaxies, and planets. And, realized, “Things are NOT always someone else’s fault.”
A calm washed over me like the gentle early morning air.
In the Center, I actually admired the shadows on the tree that the glow from the neighbor’s lights cast on the branches, trunks, and limbs. After a few minutes, I re-traced my path.
The back lighting from car headlights, illuminated the intricate structure of Indian Grass. The Maximilian Sunflowers glowed bright yellow as the lights swept past. Instead of resenting the flower stalks leaning across the path, I remembered the Reiki principle from Mrs. Takata (I think) how with obstacles we can pick them up and move them, go around them, or step on and over them, and I ducked around them. I even thanked one for its ridiculous vibrancy.
And, I didn’t shield my eyes as I walked back into all the various light sources, which were still too bright and unnecessary. I walked the path, because I do know the trajectory. (Oh, stop with the math metaphors, Mrs. Patterson!) Even if I do not exactly know the way. My feet upon the ground were the guide.
So, today I will work to prevent “Shenpa” from dominating my connections with students. They have to make their choices. The tasks before me with the KPACE program, the Equinox Labyrinth Workshop, the upcoming AARP Smart Driving trainings, hosting the facilitators can be balanced with logic and intuition. Just as NH and I discussed in yesterday’s attunement and Intuitive Reiki session.
Just be gentle. And, as TMcP quips, “It’s all good.”